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Showing posts with label religious. Show all posts

Monday, October 7, 2013

Recollections on a Rainy Day

             It is raining outside, a dreadful pour that blocks the streets. I hear carriages trot past but cannot see them and can't help but wonder if the roses are being well-watered. Unfortunately, the cold weather and my plentiful duties have long kept me from the garden. How I should love to walk there!
Folding my hands, I pretend ever so successfully that the thunder doesn't frighten me. My mind recalls a storm this bad, many years ago, when I was only nineteen years old, an ambitious seminarian, completing my 2nd year. I had been staring out a cloister window, fascinated by heavy rain that beat upon the bottled glass. Glass back then was made from cheap, green bottles. From behind came Renaldo, who quickly shoved past me to peer out. Catching sight of a couple fleeing the waterlogged road, he pointed and laughed:
“Look how that pitiful man must go back for his wife! I’d maybe go back for my breviary…”
Soon, some four young men gathered there, pushing and shoving. They longed to see the couple but grey clouded everything. Leonardo, the oldest, straightened up and rather predictably, intoned a sharp C in his deep, tenor voice. Catching on, the others joined their eager youthful voices.  Between old, stone cloisters, rang a new song, trying to sound ancient- but altogether silly: the chant of the seminarians. That year, it went like this:

           When I was a young man, I dreamt my wedding day...
            But there was no bride in white.
            and it would last forever!
                       
            Oh my beloved is Chastity!
She won’t nag or ask for things.
            nor drag me from place to place!
          
         I’m a seminarian- soon to be ordained…
            Thomas Aquin my best man,
Blest Mary bears the ring.

            Poor Clare supplieth roses,
            and good Joseph, the rod breaks.
            On the day I’ll say forever!

            Oh, sweet chastity, she is my bride.
            Oh, sweet chastity, so free! 
            Celibacy but a small price to pay.

            Yes, a woman’s tempting, very nice.
            Her eyes and lips all made up nice,
            But on that day, I’ll swear forever.
           
            Of Latin our tongues are burdened,
              all day long: Amo, amas, amat.
              In principio Verbum erat!

               The Matin bells we ring,
              over the mountains, Te Deum sing,
            early, early, to the choir scurry!

            In cassock and surplice, 
             shew yourselves clean, alert
            and ready, like angels on the wing.

                In deep philosophy, our minds swim,
             at morn we ponder, St Ambrose
               and Augustin.
     
                 And at eventide, theology runs a race,
                  like hounds of heaven,
                 corrected over and over.

              Joy makes no dull boy,
            our tongues shall let loose:
            O sweet chastity, shall be my bride!
             
            Say, I’ll be a priest.
            Death comes for wives and children
but the altar’s always there…

Introibo ad altare Dei,
Io, io! ~the rest you know!





Now that I think back on it, this was a very frivolous song, made up by frivolous youth and "perfected" over the years- but perhaps containing several grains of truth? I am not sure. I must watch the rain a little longer and decide... 

Friday, January 25, 2013

Tea with Cardinal Fratelli, # 12


From: Silvia Garcia Perez
 “Your Eminence, I know you’re busy but can you please help me? My eldest daughter will not go to Mass and is setting a bad example for my other children.”


Dear, Silvia Garcia Perez,
 Don’t worry about imposing, I’m never too busy to stop and help someone in need, plus it gives me time away from my cluttered office.
Alot of children get a certain age when they dye their hair strange colors, listen to objectionable music and yes, don’t want to go to church. The best remedy for this is to allow your daughter to express her feelings while asserting yourself. Long as you are the parent, she shall go to Mass- even if it means dragging her out of bed, shoving a pop-tart in her mouth and slapping a chapel-veil on her head during the car ride there.
Trust me: after much yelling and whining, when she is an adult, she will thank you for this.
In Christ,
Angelo Cardinal Fratelli

Tea with Cardinal Fratelli, # 11


From: Charlotte
“I feel so ashamed to tell you this, Good Cardinal, but I think I’m pregnant. I’m not married either and don’t want my parents to find out. What should I do!”


Dear Charlotte,
How frightened you must be!! If you do indeed discover you are with child, immediately tell your partner about this… if you can stand to look at him. Do scold him harshly and if he refuses to marry you, kindly remind him that your father owns a rifle. Also, please tell your parents. They may be very upset at first and yell unsavory things but their love for you, their precious daughter, will overcome this.
Lastly, you should absolutely go to confession.
Being pregnant doesn’t have to be an occasion for sadness. Children are a blessing in their innocence, tenacity and eating as many sweets as they can and then running wild around the house. Moreso, I gently assert that children can be taught not to repeat the same mistakes as their parents.
God be with you, and Mary, the Mother of Jesus, who indeed also knows what it feels like to find unexpected surprises in her womb.
In Christ,
Angelo Cardinal Fratelli.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

A Short Respite

After a short respite, and cleaning my rather cluttered office, I've decided to come back and write something but alas I have nothing to write! Can you imagine a preacher having nothing to write?

I was surprised to find amongst my office clutter, two volumes of St Therese's "Story of a Soul". Guilt sunk deeply into my heart as I remembered I was to read one and give one to an old friend in London. I also found lone, dried fig on the floor. Oh no, have I been eating in my office? How long ago? Then I realized that my short respite wasn't very short at all.

Time can blur by when you're off visiting various churches, (I oversee about two-hundred!) readying for the Feast of the Nativity and the Mass of Epiphany. Perhaps you forget what color you're wearing as I almost did when entering the cathedral last morning in green vestments. Thank the Good Lord I had time to change them! You see, I was just so worried about this young priest who was questioning his vocation. Then I spent an hour consoling a flustered, old couple. It seems that no matter what our age or station in life, problems come to bother us!

And I'm afraid that we often conclude that we need more vacations or respites to solve them. But our solace isn't to be found in idleness... Nor as some wrongly conclude, is it to be found in heaping ourselves over with work! Perhaps amidst our daily cares, de-cluttering and figs that we find on the floor, we need to win quiet time with the Lord. Maybe we can tell him everything and he can tell us something in return? Maybe I can break out of this slothiness and begin anew my spiritual reading?



Monday, December 3, 2012

Tea with Cardinal Fratellli, # 10


From Lucio Fontani,

 “Eminenza, I have been thinking I might want to become a priest someday. What should I do?”


Dear, Lucio Fontani,

 This is wonderful news!! There is no moment more beautiful than when a young man decides to dedicate his life to God!
However, before deciding you might become a priest, ponder whether you enjoy being anonymous, overworked, lonely, misunderstood, ordered around, pushed aside, falsely flattered, and disregarded… and did I mention being overworked? If you find all of these things enjoyable, priesthood may be the correct vocation for you.
And my son, while you do think of these things and try to retain goodly composure and sanity, you will be in my prayers.
 Yours In Christ,
Angelo Cardinal Fratelli

Sunday, November 25, 2012

The Cardinal and The Constable, ch 4-5


Chapter 4.
            The Plan.

            Late hours trickled by. At last, when streaks of dawn pierced the sky with pinkish hues, Cardinal Fratelli stood before the great window in his bedroom, watching sunrise climb from behind the hills.
            Silently, Ernesto’s dark figure lingered. His dreary eyelids drooped and he tiredly paced back and forth. Slowly, he turned to walk away. Abruptly, Fratelli cried out,
            “Ernesto, don’t you leave me. We must talk about this.”
            His hand eagerly beckoned.
            “I’ve been standing right here about half an hour and now, all of sudden, you need me?” Ernesto quipped.
 Fratelli sunk into his chair, collapsing dramatically. He mused a moment, then began:
            “This is awful- very awful… I can’t believe you consider Father Adreo capable of murder. He is so shy and cautious, always mindful. How could you?”
            “I don’t think Adreo killed anyone,” Ernesto replied, “But I swore an oath to perform my duties as constable unto the greatest ability and that means abiding by the city’s laws and orderly seeking justice. I don’t like it either but Adreo is accountable here and must be examined…”
            “But he is entirely innocent!”
            “How do you know that?”
            “Because I know.”
            Ernesto’s sudden snicker came out more like a hiss. His tired mouth couldn’t properly make the sound. Nor could his eyes convey the exact exasperation he felt. However, Fratelli must have possessed greater vexation for he emotively stroked the jeweled cross around his neck and mumbled. Not understanding, not entirely caring, Ernesto turned around.
            “Now, if you don’t mind, I’m going home…”
            “Wait!”
            Ernesto looked back to see Fratelli leaping from his chair, almost knocking his leg against it in an excited scramble to stand. He stumbled forth and exclaimed: “By the grace of God, I will prove him guiltless!”
            “And how will you go about that?” Ernesto asked, incredulous.
            “Easily: by use of my God-given reason. There must be something amiss, some detail you overlooked…”
            “So says the high churchman to the seasoned law-officer?”
            “You think I am jesting.”
            “No, I think you are over-tired and coming up with fanciful ideas. Angelo- Your Eminence, leave this situation to us. I promise I’ll try to clear Father Adreo…”
            “Let me help you.”
            Ernesto withdrew, tiptoed across the room and began to quietly open the door when Fratelli loudly slammed it shut with one arm. He then backed against it.
            “I won’t allow you to leave until you accept my help,” he cautiously whispered, as if everyone in the house wasn’t already rudely awakened.   
            “You stubborn, stubborn cardinal!”
            “…We are brothers,” Fratelli said.
            His warm, amber eyes shined plaintively; almost youthful. There was something so familiar in that stare; Ernesto nearly forgot that he spent his whole childhood without once seeing it.
            “Okay…okay” he whined, “Just stop looking at me like that- it’s beneath you.”
            Fratelli hastily reclaimed his dignity then folded his arms and shuffled away. Sorely tired, he didn’t mind when Ernesto exited and left him pondering alone in the dark. Sitting in his chair, lost amidst circling thoughts, he fell asleep.

            Feeling a sharp nudge, Fratelli awoke. He shook the cluttered thoughts from his head, blinked tiredly and glanced up at Dina. Her light-blue, cotton dress glowed in late afternoon sun. Wryly, she smiled and let him stand.
            “I had the most-terrible night, the worst in all my life…except perhaps that one night when I fell down the stairs…” Fratelli mumbled.
            “Yes, I know,” she answered, “I heard everything.”
            “Dina, you eavesdropped?”
            “Of course I did…Forgive me, Your Eminence, I was worried.”
            He sighed. Let me worry about myself, he silently thought.

             


Chapter 5.
            The Great Artist.

            “Merciful Lord, you alone judge the just man, you alone are bread for the righteous. I admit that I may have not always prayed as I ought. Verily, I sometimes asked, O God, out of the vanity of my heart, for selfish things. However, I bring to you a matter more important than preserving my happiness- or my hairline…
            Father, as thine own Son was falsely accused, I pray you deliver my son, Adreo who is unjustly held against his willwell, I think he is!”
            A sudden, uneasy quietness settled over the dim space where Fratelli knelt praying. Far from the cranky scowl he wore that morning, his face showed a stoic stillness. He cleared his throat and continued:
            “Lord Christ, I devoutly implore you to grant me wisdom where I lack it- and discretion also…”
            Unsure of what else to say, the cardinal hushed, nervously crossed himself and stood. Impatiently, he left the cathedral and encountered a woman clad in silken, pink skirts. Shaking her auburn locks, peering with shrewd, green eyes, she politely grinned and greeted him:
            “Why, good evening Angelo!”
            “Hello Francine.”
            Fratelli started walking past her when she reached for his arm.
            “Oh Angelo, I have wonderful news,” she said.
            What now? He paused in his tracks, listening as she rambled:
            “I’m surprised you don’t already know this, being supposedly cultured as you are, but one of the greatest artists in all of Europe is coming here to Lucca. Have you heard of Gino Siglio? Of course you have. Well, his works are on display at the Museo D’Arte. Why don’t you come with me this evening?”
            “I am busy this evening,” Fratelli answered.
            Francine grimaced. 
            “Angelo, we never do anything together. It’s almost as if I don’t even have a nephew,” she lamented.
            Bristling, Fratelli responded, “Stop calling me “Angelo”.”
            Lifting a dainty, gloved hand, Francine giggled. Noticing his strained face, her smile faded. She glanced away, briefly distracted by a white bird that fluttered in treetops above, then re-addressed him:
            “I’m sorry…Your Eminence…Would you like to go out with your dear Aunt Francine this evening?”
            “Not tonight,” he replied, “I have other things to do.”
            “Come now. You can read your bible or powder your miter some other time.”
            Fratelli rolled his eyes.
“That is all you think I do, isn’t it?” he asked.
“Well, what do you do?”
Fratelli scowled, pursing his lips lest he say something he might regret. Anxiously, his interlocking fingers reached and toyed with his golden ring. There was perhaps no way of changing her mind… He said a courteous farewell and darted out of sight.  

Inside, Fratelli sat in the parlor as Dina brought him a cold glass of water. He wiped some sweat from his forehead and gratefully drank. Soon as Dina began to leave, a boy with light, golden-brown hair- no older than thirteen, scampered in. He was Gianni, Dina’s newly adopted son. Right away, he set about, curiously touching various books and statuettes in the room. Dina turned back to scold him when Fratelli instead spoke,
“Gianni, seeing as you have so much energy and don’t know what to do with it, how would you like to serve at the altar for Sunday’s Mass?”
“Me?”
“Yes, you.”
“Um…okay.”
Smiling Fratelli told him, “Good, we will practice tomorrow evening the things you are to do…”
Dina grinned as the boy ran off down the hallway.
“Would you like some more water, Your Eminence?” she then asked.
“If you do not mind, I would love some tea…I just spoke with my Aunt Francine and she may be whisking me off some place tonight that I’d rather not go… Netherless, I will have my hands full.”
She nodded, removed the empty glass and left. By himself, able to think over the many things that hounded his mind, Fratelli rested, looking out the window. Summer sun blazed brightly over green gardens. A few birds sang a lazy song. How he wished to go upstairs and steal a short nap… However, Dina shortly came back with a hot pot of tea and he remembered that work waited.
As evening crept closer, Fratelli paused in his office amidst paper-work and various church documents just as Dina called him to dinner. Peacefully, he sat eating his supper of roasted tomatoes, ham and olives when Francine entered the dining room, clad in a lavish, blue silk dress, fanning herself with an embroidered, oriental fan. From his place beside Fratelli, Father Rodrigo peered up. Fratelli hurried to finish, not saying anything about this rude imposition, and met Francine in the hallway.
“I’m so glad you could come with me!” she shouted, “This will be a wonderful, just splendid night!”
For some reason, he wasn’t extremely excited.
             
             En route to the Museo D’Arte, Fratelli sat across from Francine in a sumptuous stagecoach. It was actually more sumptuous than he preferred but again, he kept silent, only looking out the window every now and then, while fastidiously wiping a smudge from his golden cross. Thoughts of Father Adreo sitting alone, imprisoned occupied his mind. Early the next morning, he would meet with Ernesto and discuss this. Yet, Fratelli couldn’t quite wait. It was all he thought about even as they pulled up before the bustling, brightly-lit piazza.
 Francine and Fratelli climbed out into the open, balmy night air. People milled to the right and left, some parting as they approached. It was hard to ignore both of them: Francine in her royal blue attire and Fratelli wearing his bright, scarlet robes. Crowds stopped and eyed them. Francine waved and laughed, happy to be seen- especially with the cardinal in tow. Fratelli hid his face and snuck inside.
            In the foyer of the grand Museo, a huge picture greeted them. Depicted there on a scale of pastel pinks, greens and blues: two women, wearing similar dresses, with similar features, gesturing and yelling at eachother while a letter lay on the table before them. Their emotional expressions flashed hot and excited.
            …Fratelli knew the feeling.
            “Ooh look at this one!” Francine cried.
            Hesitantly, he stepped into a large corridor. His eyes followed Francine’s gesture to a smaller- but far more beauteous picture. Stopped in a rose-garden, an angel alighted from heaven, pure white wings outspread, halo shimmering like the sun. Her gentle, bare feet caressed the flowers. He blinked twice, finding it hard to believe this was simply rendered from paint on a flat canvas. 
            “Your Eminence!”
            The booming voice startled Fratelli so badly; he jumped and almost fled from the room. A slender, tall man approached, donned in elegant clothes, his reddish-brown hair covered by a black, felt hat. Dramatically, the man bowed and kissed Fratelli’s ring. His rich umber eyes stared directly.
            “In case you do not know who I am already, I am Gino Siglio, yes, I am the artist.”
            Francine swooned, vigorously fanning herself and hanging on his every word.
            “This picture, yes… an angel perched among the roses, she is the sweetest rose! It took me a year to get everything just perfect- her face, her hair- each rose petal beneath her feet. It appears you like it very much, Your Eminence, don’t you?”
            Fratelli stood transfixed by this man’s forceful personality. Slowly, he uttered:
            “It is beautiful, yes”
            “Will you buy it?”
            “I may want you to paint something else for me, we’ll talk later.”
            Gino smiled broadly, took the cardinal’s hand and again kissed his ring, then he spun away to speak with another onlooker. Francine beamed, staring silently at him. Fratelli nervously exited the corridor. Chasing after, Francine gasped:
            “You are going to commission something? I can’t believe how great this is! He is so great!”
            Fratelli stopped and gazed at her awkwardly.
            “What is with you?” he hissed.
            “I like handsome men!”
            “I’m handsome, you don’t like me…”
            “Handsome- and talented…”
             He groaned.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

4 Laws of Ecclesiastical Finery.

 4 Laws of Ecclesiastical Finery:


1st Law:

cappa magna not held 3 feet off the ground = fallen bishop.

2nd Law:

strong gust of wind + zucchetto = -zucchetto.




3rd Law:

Episcopal gloves - clean hands = dirty episcopal gloves.

4th Law:

bishop + rain = wet miter + cold.

Monday, April 2, 2012

The Misadventures of Cardinal Fratelli, ch 1 (draft)

(Just a reminder. If you want to read the fully edited versions of these chapters, you can purchase the book "The Misadventures of Cardinal Fratelli" from Amazon Kindle or NOOK. Some things are omitted and uncorrected in these drafts as they were... well my drafts.)




Chapter 1
A Lazy Afternoon.

Afternoon sun flooded through stained-glass, soaking the cathedral floor with blue, yellow and magenta hues. Faint incense smoke still hung in the air. Birds chirped outside heralding springtime.
Knelt there before the white, marble, side-altar of St. Joseph, a young, brown-haired cardinal in draping, red finery prays a silent prayer. No sound disrupted him. Ignoring the sun’s glare which danced off the golden cross around his neck, he intently concluded aloud:
Holy Patron of the Universal Church, also pray the Lord blesses the work of my hands. Be a guide and guardian to me. Steady my soul and protect my heart… May the Angels of God watch over me…In Father, Son and Holy Ghost~ Amen.”
After delicately tracing a cross, he stood up with hands folded and begins walking down the wide aisle as if in solemn procession. No sooner than he stepped outside, did he trek over a puddle left by morning rain and slip onto the ground. Rubbing his hurt side, dismayed at stained robes, the cardinal muttered, “thanks…
Still softly grumbling, the cardinal walked beneath shaded trees and crossed a finely-kept courtyard. Calm set over him. Roses spread their petals towards the sun, vines crept upwards and a small, white bird bathed in the stone fountain at its center. Hearing human footfalls, it fled leaving a sprinkle of water behind.
The cardinal wiped sweat from his forehead and entered into the welcoming shade of his villa. Reminded of his irritation, he removed his shoes, shaking rainwater off them and took off his wet socks before stepping onto the carpet. Suddenly, he heard a sound.
“Father Rodrigo?”
No answer. Quietly, the cardinal tiptoed down the hallway and peered into the parlor where a man’s shadow stood then moved about. He froze worriedly wondering if someone had trespassed into his house.
His hands frantically searched for something and grabbed a walking-stick from the tall vase nearby. Then he advanced. The man now turned around. He wore a priest’s black cassock. Sheepishly, the cardinal lowered the walking-stick and his lips curled in a slight smile as if pretending he had no intent on hitting the fellow over the head. He asked:
“What are you doing here?”
“Father Rodrigo, before leaving for vacation, sent me here to replace him as your secretary…”
The cardinal replied, “It would have been nice if someone told me that…”
“I am Father Arnold,” said the priest, “and you are His Eminence, Cardinal Fratelli?”
“Of course.”
Arnold bent to kiss the cardinal’s gold ring then took notice of his mud-stained garments. He paused, taken aback, and said, “Well my first order of business should be to bring those dirty robes to the maid…then I’ll make tea.”
“Sounds good to me.”

Fratelli changed into clean garb, this time being very cautious about where he stepped. He paced down the hall careful not to don the wet shoes he’d just removed and instead, wore house slippers. They were old, well used; a dull-red and barely fit, yet were preferable to soggy feet.
        He and Arnold sat for some time sipping hot tea, enjoying the lazy afternoon and talking about various subjects including this wonderful weather. Then they switched to the topic of the cathedral and its parishioners.
        “They are very nice,” Fratelli explained, “The old ladies sometimes bake me bread but I don’t need more food, so I give it to the poor when they aren’t looking… I always take a little taste though so when they ask me if I liked it, I’m not lying when I say I do. Very gracious the people of Lucca are. I am actually in the middle of writing a letter to the faithful now.”
       “Oh yes, I read it,” Father Arnold replied and quoted: “”Dear brothers and sisters in Christ…””
        There was a long pause nothing else being said. Fratelli straitened in his chair responding “Well, there’s going to be more!”
        Silently, the two put their teacups down then dutifully headed for the office downstairs to sort through piles of paper and letters. Papers and such tended to pile up at the week’s beginning, sitting even longer since they had been gone all morning for prayers and Holy Mass.
        Arnold recovered Fratelli’s “Letter to the Faithful” beneath one of the piles handing it to the cardinal. He took it and sat down resuming his letter. After writing two more lines, he raised his head at a bird’s song. Beyond the arched window, a blue-feathered bird hops from branch to branch and keeps singing.
Fratelli longed to be out there strolling amongst little creatures and taking in their beauty. The roses must be in full-bloom and wonderfully fragrant by now… However, he shook the lovely musings from his head and continued working. A few more lines were written.
He stopped again asking Arnold, “Maybe I can describe the beauty of God’s creation in the letter. Tell about how His Sacred Face is revealed in the world…?”
“They’re your faithful,” Arnold replied.
“No Father, they are just on loan to me.”
The cardinal’s amber-colored eyes flashed with inspiration. Happy, he kicked up one leg like a young boy. Arnold murmured something about immaturity. Almost hearing, unsure, Fratelli asked him what he just said.
“Nothing, Your Good Eminence, just keep writing.”

An hour passed, significant work was done and Cardinal Fratelli had just finished his letter. He looked up hearing horse-hooves upon pavement, seeing a shadow fall beneath the door.
“Come in,” he said boldly.
In stepped the Monsignor Barolo, a smile between his high-set cheeks and a flush to his pale skin. He lifted his majestic, draping garb off the floor as if the floor were dirty and sat beside Fratelli. The chair creaked beneath this obese man causing Fratelli to glance apprehensively. The older man, white-haired, grey eyed, almost forgot to nod with due reverence before he spoke,
“I’ve traveled long to see you Fratelli… I thought you would’ve invited me.”
“Sorry,” Fratelli said meekly, “I was so busy.”
“You can never be too busy for old, dear friends!”
“Oh yes you can.”
They talked for some time outright ignoring Father Arnold who sat arms crossed, softly huffing. Finally, he said,
“Your Eminence, why don’t you go fetch your letter and read it for Monsignor?”
Fratelli began to stand then halted. He turned replying, “That is your kind of work-not mine.”
Arnold nodded.
“Oh, yes…yes,” he agreed standing. Instantly, Fratelli waved a hand at him.
“Never mind, sit down, I’ll get it…”
Once Fratelli left the room, Monsignor Barolo peered at Arnold inquisitive.
“I wonder about that one,” he states.